The Princess Suite

I laid back on the table, trying desperately not to look at the screen.  
The nice technician was rolling the cold ultrasound gel around my growing belly.
I shouldn't be nervous, I had been here 3 times before, all with the same result.  I had 3 beautiful, blue eyed boys at home to prove it.

But this time was different...this time was the last time...and this time...just maybe...possibly...it was a 50/50 chance right?....this time it could be a girl.


I was rambling on about how all our friends and family were anxiously waiting for the phone call....everyone was wanting to know...but I was sure it was another boy...there was nothing that felt different about this pregnancy...wow, life with 4 boys was going to be crazy...the nice technician interrupted me...."Look Mom" she said.
Then I saw the letters she was typing on the screen...

I AM A GIRL
Those words changed everything!!


Although I would love to say that my first thoughts about having a daughter were thoughts of the teachings, the love, the legacy I would pass along....I can't.  I just can't.
Wanna know what passed thru the mind of a shallow woman who had been raising 3 boys for 8 years and just found out she was having a girl?


"I get to decorate a baby girls room!"


Yep.  That's all that I could think about...the rest of the day was a blur...in fact, the next 4 months were filled with nothing but shopping, weighing shabby chic vs. pastel princess themes and spending countless hours on ebay discovering a whole new world of PINK!


Of course, we quickly nicknamed "the room" The Princess Suite.  So when I saw this crafty sign on ebay it began the obsession.

I spent my days...my nights...my every waking moment finding things like this precious rocker...

I would perfectly arrange her bedding in the brand new crib so it looked just like the magazine pictures...

I found a hand-painted dresser on ebay and had it rush shipped!

And I thought this chandelier was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen...

...I didn't care that it barely gave off any light!


I would walk in that room all day long and just imagine the tea parties, baby dolls and playdates that would soon be happening in the Princess Suite.


This is what the Princess Suite looks like today.
Those photos make my heart hurt.


On this day 5 years ago my Princess was born.

I've had the tea parties....I've played with the baby dolls...there's been countless playdates filled with laughter and tiaras and lots of pink.  I've loved the last 5 years with my Princess and my Princes.


But ohh....how I wish...on days like this....I could do it just one more time~